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Scars

Few weeks ago I have watched this movie called Wonder. It's about a child, August Pullman (Auggie) with facial deformity struggling to fit in high school. What he said resonated pretty well in me... it was something like, "Children don't like me but adults hide it better". I think this is very true for everyone. I wasn't born with facial deformity but my thought process just don't blend in very well with majority of my friends' wavelength in school. While everyone in school is living in the present, chasing against fame...popularity...coolness... I was one of the few among them studying hard for my future. Heck not just that, I was pretty religious too because I believed there must be a divine meaning to life. Moreover I tend to not let my feelings get in the way.... like most engineers I lack this social eq and expecting everyone to think as logically as me. Hence I offended quite a lot of people in school. Honestly what I really wanted since a long ti
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Self Esteem

Last night I had a reunion gathering with my secondary school friends. The purpose of the reunion is to catch up with a friend from Canada as she rarely comes back to visit Malaysia. I think the reunion is pretty successful due to her and another friend came back from Melbourne for holiday. If it wasn't for both of them we probably wouldn't even see each other. I think that's mainly because as we grow up, we have increasingly limited and budget to make time for less interested friends. Unlike in school where we can meet up everyday for a budget less than RM10 per day so now we try to concentrate all our resources on important friends that actually matter. It was an interesting night not because it's enjoyable but it reaffirmed me who is a dick and who is not. Honestly the night was tough as it exhausted all my extrovert and introvert energy. There were too many people and it's hard to make a decent, fruitful and conversation be it in personal or groups. As usual
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